Can you hear my heartbeat?
My breathing?
Soundlessly I will lay awake tonight
I will wonder..
do you still think of me?
I will act like everythings okay
but really i want to cry
lay down and give up
sit and cry in a corner because I feel as if there is no escape
From my pain
rattling in my chest
a deep empitness
a black hole
nothing to fill it but cold cold air
I give everyone the cold shoulder
with a tear in my eye and water splattered on my shirt
no makeup
hair up
sweats
Looking as if I just rolled out of bed
I dont care anymore
All i feel is empitness
deep deep deep
sinking into the black oblivion
the endless abyss
I want you back
that old feeling of butterflies in my stomache everytime you kiss me, touch me, look at me
I need you back to fill this empty spot
Im only asking
never demanding
for you to see the pain youre putting me through
fill me up with the colors of the world
fill me on overload to feel anything at all
just to feel....