as only

as tears brake the suffice
and the blade touches the skin
and the pain grows with every word
as the tears fall uncontrollably
and she goes to sleep
i pick up the blade
as the anger grows
and she doesn't notice
just how much i hate myself
as the blood rushes to the floor
and my eyelids grow heavy
she wants to help
as i slip away
she starts to care
only just a little to late