Time to Heal

You try to block out the sounds
Their laughter brings only more pain
You slip off to your dark room, alone
With just the cold and the rain

You shut the door behind you
Don’t bother to turn on a light
You press your face to the window
Gaze out at the water-filled night

The tears you could hide no longer
Drop like frozen stones from your eyes
You dash them away in anger
Not wanting their comforting lies

They tell you you’re hurt, alone and afraid
They tell you your sorrow is real
They tell you that you have a reason to cry
They give you a fake way to heal

Each new tear leaves fresh scars
That tremble wet on your face
Every droplet of despair
Betrays your thoughts as you pace

You hate the lies, the emotions
Hate the things that make you cry
You know there’s no reason save your sin
For the tears that question why

Envy, hurt, and loneliness
A feeling of selfish desire
Spill out with teardrops of ice
And scald you with loathly fire

They tell you you’re hurt, alone and afraid
They tell you your sorrow is real
They tell you that you have a reason to cry
They give you a fake way to heal

Yelling inside, you reject them
Angry for feeling what you hate
Why can’t you be like the others?
Why can’t you sit silent and wait?

The envy you feel tries to crush you
And yet you don’t want the desire
You don’t want that jealous heart
You want to reject the harsh fire

You turn from the rain-drenched window
Brush the last hateful tears from your eyes
You push the emotions back down
Turn your back on the tears and the lies

You know you’re not hurt, alone, or afraid
You know that your sorrow’s not real
You know that you have no reason to cry
You know there’s no fake way to heal

Back down in the lights and the laughter
Your hair hides the scars on your face
Scars of old tears that still threaten
Tears that your eyes yet encase

For although you’re not hurt, alone, or afraid
Although your sorrow’s not real
Although you know you’ve no reason to cry
Your heart still needs time to heal