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Not Now

January 9, 2011
By McTessa SILVER, St. Paul, Minnesota
McTessa SILVER, St. Paul, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
"I make Jessica Simpson look like a Rock Scientist" -Tara Reid
"I get to go to lots of overseas places, like Canada." - Britney Spears

Please don’t make me think.
I’m so tired of the endless thoughts cycling through my brain.
The constant breeze of ideas that slide into my head when I least expect it.
Ooze into my subconscious without me noticing.
Taking hold of my brain, my thoughts, my emotions.

They used to make me so happy.
But not lately.
Not now.
The thoughts have become parasites.
Feeding off my pain.

I wish they would stop.
I long for them to leave me in silence.
Complete, and utter silence.
Not a whisper of a thought,
Not the gentle calling of a daydream that I awake from only to feel the sharp claws of reality capture me in its grips once again.

The careless dreams I used to have are no more.
They’ve disappeared.
Missing in Action.
Once so strong, yet now so weak.
Stolen, by the very parasites that tug at my every thought.

The stress those parasites bring sits in my stomach.
Like a rock.
Weighing me down.
An anchor, holding me to the ground when all I want to do is fly.
Fly free,
But no.

The thoughts creep back and tie me down,
Please, don’t make me think.
For, no thoughts at all would be better than this.

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on Feb. 10 2011 at 3:44 pm
lilmartz PLATINUM, Perrysburg, Ohio
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This is really good! First couple lines made me think of school. But no, I understand what you're trying to say, and I love the message of this poem. It's exactly the way I think (or chose not to think, that is). I try not think of things, so I don't get hurt and bad memories end of literally being erased from my mind, so I don't remember them. It's crazy, but your poem really captured the true essence of someone struggling to push those thoughts out of their head. I really like this! Nice job :)

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