The hot rage burns my face then crawls down my throat where it lumps up and remains, threatening to force tears out of my already moist eyes. I swallow the evil lump while the anger then creeps down my arms to my hands where i ball them into fists in an attempt calm myself. Instead i succeed in digging my long fingernails into my soft fleshy palms causing even more pain. The anger courses through me and i have lost all control of my body and become someone else. Adrenaline teams up with the anger and emotion inside me and causes me to do something I would never have the guts to do alone. But as soon as whatever evil hatred-filled act I did is finished the anger and hurt washes out of me and I'm left bare, with no more edge or fire and have to face the consequences of my temper alone.
January 21, 2011