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I Wish...I Used to Be...and I am...

January 11, 2011
By Phina ELITE, Fort Wayne, Indiana
Phina ELITE, Fort Wayne, Indiana
102 articles 18 photos 16 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Some of the best and most beautiful things cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart." Helen Keller


I wish...
Sometimes I could have a second chance at life.
Learn to live a little better.
Be a little freer.

And I wish...
I could be forgiven the sins which I commit.
I could love my family and maybe be loved in return.

I wish...
I was better at everything I lack.
To be loved for who I am rather than because I was born.
To be a choice rather than an obligation.
To be a friend, daughter, sister, and lover. Not who I pretend to be.

I used to be...
An adventure
Seeking thrills with my pillow.
I used to be a world undivided,
A Pangaea; a continent of my own.
I used to be a dove,
With a graceful neck and a longing
For things of natural beauty.

I am undivided.
A world unknown.
A sea, of pale and endless skin,
A love with a heart of gold.
I am a freedom fighter
Dancing between the sweat of two sheets.
I am a lover,
Hiding behind the safety on the frontlines of my pillow.
I am a planet.
All my own dancing on my own orbit.

I am a country,
A home to my lover,
A harbor to my children,
And a mother to my friends.
You cannot find me,
Until I call your name.
I am a soldier.
Wounded on lines of war.
A war of the heart.
I ride my horse throughout an endless sea
And fall into the sky.
I am who I dean to be.
I am Skye.


The author's comments:
I wrote this as one of the first simple truths I allowed into my thoughts after two years of lying to myself. After two years of trying to force my mind to believe in something that wasn't true, this was the first official breakthrough I had with myself at discovering that I could admit to the truth without completely breaking down.

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