Understand

People say they want to understand
But they wont sit and listen
They want me to let it out
I do but on myself
I have scares
I have overdosed
i have chocked myself
I don't want to live
I don't want to be here
Some people tell me they understand
How can they
Most of them have both parents
My dad wont even be in the same room as me
My mom lives out of state
I am all alone in this world
Living an unhappy life
Always faking
Never real
People judge
Judge me wrong
I am not a happy person all the time
I cry on the inside
So torn
So unloved
So hated
Never having a place
Always on my own
No one there to help
Just getting more scares
Glass
Sicorros
Which one my weapon
Depending on how I feel
If I want to really injury
Sicorros
If I want just to relieve
Glass
I ask why me
But I give up
Now just going throw life
Never really caring
Never really loving