I go to bed with tears in my eyes
I go to bed with fears of my life
You heard the saying 'to be and not to be'
No one understands it the way like me
To know you will never be happy until it comes true
Though there's more people who want to do what I want to
If you only knew how I live my life in my mind
You would know the reason why
People ask what I want to do and laugh while I cry
But if only they knew one day I'll fly
High above this hating town
To bigger places where they don't look down
But even if they do I still won't mind
Because the real me won't be hiding behind
The real me will be out there shining with happiness
Instead of when I put on a mask for likeness
I always knew I didn't belong
But I didn't know I'd be unhappy this long
I thought I would be satisfied by now
But now I just ask myself how
And why I took this long to still not be
The real, true, confident me
No one on earth knows my heart
If only they knew they are far apart
My heart does not live where you know
For it lives where happiness grows
My mind is far away from the real world
Where I'm living my dream as an ordinary girl
What I would do to make it reality
What I would do to have it in clarity
I go to bed with tears in my eyes
I go to bed living a lie