Dear D.H,

Not a day goes by that I don't wake up and see your face
I think about the many memories that I can never erase
I wish I could take it back, all the fights and smacks
I know you know that I can't do it
But it seems that you should be helping me through it
All the times I sit up and think,
think I'm on the brink of breaking down.
I know you love me
But why is this so hard?
I can see it in your eyes at school,
I know you miss me.
What happened?
I thought I was over you,
But all I want is to know you're not.
I can't handle these things in my life.
I don't have anyone to run to when I want to cry
After all this time we've been apart
Even though you were the one who made me feel like s*** from the start
I can't not wonder
My mind just wanders
Over all the things that we could be
We're not though
And that eats me up.
I thought getting you out of my life would be for the best
But I'm clearly failing this test
It hurts to know you don't feel the same
Or maybe it's just me
Maybe I'm insane
To still care, still want to share
all the kisses and hugs that were once countless
There in front of me
I just couldn't see, you ever leaving me
But memories will fade.