Don’t speak,
For Silence is my only friend.
Throughout it all,
He never left me.
He provides the bittersweet sound
Of Nothing.
His accompaniment,
Is Darkness.
Pain is their tag-a-long.
She clings to me.
Her familiarity stings.
She’s inside me,
She’s all around me.
When I think I’m alone,
They are always there.
Like a nagging hunger
They pull at my insides.
Silence grips my voice,
Forcing my lack of speech.
Darkness binds my thoughts
I have no control.
Pain grips my mind.
With every word,
She feels more at home.
I long to fill my days with
Self-confidence,
Beauty,
Freedom.
Will I always be subject
To the emptiness of dark?
Is there light out there
For someone like me?
No, don’t answer that.
Don’t speak.