This is just a game
a balance between happiness and vulnerability
trying to hold onto something
that I'm not sure I want to hold on to.
I do want this,
for him,
for me,
for this,
this feeling,
the one of happiness
because I am his,
because when he smiles I'm happy,
because when he touches me I melt,
and when we are together the whole world


.......stops.......
But do I?
Do I want to hold on?
It gets me so high
everyday
and then it crashes on top of me,
this is vulnerability..
Knowing that I am completely his
and he can hurt me
without even trying,
knowing that just by having it
he could break my heart.
And destroying me
would be so easy.
So I hold on
because
I'm happiest with you,
Happier then I ever have been
and I hold on
tighter yet
to those lost feelings
of when you hurt me
because letting go would mean my world


.......stops.......