The First Time I cried in Florida

I was only 8 years old
When I watched my beloved nana slowly fade
It started with the ER visit
Ended with the Funeral
I knew she was sick
And I knew she was miserable
Time slowly passes
As anxiousness hangs over you
You come home from school everyday
Asking
Is she ok?
The answer is always the same
We don’t quite know yet
But I knew they did
Somewhere deep
I could feel the end coming around the corner
Monday
She can’t walk
Tuesday
No phone call
Wednesday
She’s in the hospital
Thursday
The answer changes to
It doesn’t look like she’s going to make it
Friday
She’s dead
The fight becomes a loss
As you hope this isn’t real
You want to run away from it
But reality catches you
And leaves you on an endless road
Where the exit is farewell
You take a familiar flight to a place that hosted many good memories
Easter 2002
You remember she was always the best at hiding the egg
Family Reunion 2001
You vaguely remember going to her pool and beating your older brother in a swim race
But this flight was no vacation
Even though you would see all your lively aunts and uncles
Aunt Peggy, Uncle Charlie, and Cousin Lila
But no nana
You don’t get the warm feeling when the pilot says
We will be arriving shortly
Because nana won’t be
When the funeral comes
And You’re sitting in the front row
You get a feeling
That never
Not once
You’ve experienced in this place before
And ever so slowly
A million memories flash through your mind
And then it came to be that on July 16, 2004
It would be the first time I cried in Florida





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pencils_4_hands This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 13, 2010 at 7:11 pm
omg really? oh i remember u... u went sledding with me, will, patrick and my friend hannah at wellesley college... i threw ur boot down the hill :) good times good times
 
pencils_4_hands This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Dec. 20, 2010 at 6:28 pm
lol yeah this is so weird i cant believe it! btw this is really good also.. i dont think i ever mentioned it lol :) u have a lot of talent
 
hughesfan123 said...
Dec. 13, 2010 at 4:40 pm
do u have a brother? cuz i think i kno him, my friend has a sister named reed, his names will lol
 
pencils_4_hands This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 13, 2010 at 7:11 pm
omg really? oh i remember u... u went sledding with me, will, patrick and my friend hannah at wellesley college... i threw ur boot down the hill :) good times good times
 
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