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A Friendship I Miss

i was afraid to make the leap.
to sacrifice our friendship, i would die to keep.
i kept the secret for quite some time.
before i accidentally let it slip, out of my mind.

out into the open, i cant ever take it back.
the three words of commitment, i so longingly lacked.
it was the first time i had said it, for i truly felt a new reach.
and it was the first time i had been rejected, with nothing left from the leech.

you had drained all my happiness just by saying a couple of things i had never heard
my smiles quickly faded, just like your words.
one minute you loved me, the next you were mad.
and when i tried to leave you alone, you told me it would only make you sad.

i waited longer than i should have, to see if you would change your reply.
eventually you did, but i knew it was a lie.
my constant emptiness mustve gotten on your nerves.
for you dished out a tray of lies, you had no where else to serve.

i was an easy target, if you want to look at it that way.
you could've told the truth and i wouldn't still be thinking about you today.
yes, it was stupid of me for letting your lies get to me
but now i dont regret the breakup, i regret the controversy.

you still wont admit what you said wasnt true.
but i know, honestly, you said it because i said i loved you.
you felt obligated to say the same thing.
although it wasnt at that exact moment, it was the beginning.

the beginning of my happiness, but our friendship couldnt come back.
the friendship i always loved, quickly changed to black.
we made a terrible couple, but the perfect friends.
so where are we now? our friendship is coming to an end.

whenever we talk, it doesnt feel the same.
i cant tell you the things i once said before, and im the one to blame.
i still wish i had the friend i would once die for.
but i'm not sure if thats what you want, because of what happened before.

if i wouldnt have ever took the risk of telling you how i felt, i'd still have my best friend.
and we would always be close, until the very end.



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alanacarlene said...
Oct. 26, 2010 at 6:55 pm:
This is really good and really sad I almost know how you feel. It reminds me of this horrible situation I'm in like a love triangle of THREE FRIENDS! It really breaks my heart... :'(
 
IJustWannaSmile replied...
Oct. 30, 2010 at 8:52 am :
i cant begin to explain how much it sucks to be put in your position...im very sorry to hear that you have to be put in that position.
 
alanacarlene replied...
Oct. 30, 2010 at 9:03 pm :

:) thanx so much for your sympathy

if you have the chance would you mind checkin out some of my poems? thanks again:)

 
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LilStinka said...
Oct. 25, 2010 at 2:09 pm:
It's really good. Especially love the line "you still wont admit...I loved you"

I know exactly how you feel. Thing is...if you really want to keep that friend, you can. Just have to talk to them...once you've said the first part, might as well have it all out.
 
IJustWannaSmile replied...
Oct. 29, 2010 at 7:39 pm :
i wish it were that easy but its truly not. ive tried to make conversation with him multiple times. It just isnt the same anymore..
 
LilStinka replied...
Oct. 30, 2010 at 5:54 am :
I'm really sorry about that. I wish I could give you better advice, but since I've only been in this situation twice I don't have too much experience. Both cases turned out differently, with one, my family moved before we could work it out, with the other, I cornered him and wouldnt let him go until i spoke my piece. He finally started talkin to me again when I kinda went out with another guy.
 
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