Go Ahead, Do It

September 29, 2010
I know what you’ve come to tell me. Shouldn’t it be obvious by now? The hugs, the distant but close gazes, you softly running your hand down my arm and fingertips, I’ve seen it all before.

No, I don’t want to sit in the back corner. I want to sit right where we are. What difference does it make? Oh right, you have less physical control over me. It’s more difficult to make me fall for your twisted games now, isn’t it?

Stop checking your phone. If we’re going to have this conversation, it’s going to be between us. Not between a third party and us.

Don’t you dare move your chair over here by mine. Don’t you even think about it. I’m perfectly fine sitting across from you. Stop touching my leg, and don’t kiss my hand. Don’t try to romance me, you didn’t while I was yours, so don’t do it now.

Your scent is so sweet. You always smell so good, so…intriguing. I don’t want to sit by you…and yet I want so bad to smell that sweet smell on your clothes, on your body, a mix between your own indulgent scent and your cologne. Something I’ve never smelled on anyone before, it’s so unique.

I love the feel of your lips on my neck and shoulders. Well, I did at least. Now it feels like a trap. A blissful, blissful trap. Like a fudge brownie after months of Jenny Craig. It’s that good, and yet that gut wrenching.

Promiscuous Girl…I have a hard time listening to that song now. After making a duet together in the back of your parent’s car on the way back to my house. Mom and dad were so clueless, and yet it was so sexy, so romantic, so us.

I still mark your birthday on my calendar, you know. November eleventh. We don’t have school on that day this year. I almost want to go into Portland and surprise you. But I know that’s not a good idea…not for me.

“I’ll never stop trying to get you back.” Your words are still ringing in my ears. Though I can’t help but ask, why couldn’t you have thought of that before we lost everything we had? We were that couple that made everyone else jealous. You said so yourself, you want that back. Well undeniably, so do I. I’m just smarter then that…to my fortune, or misfortune, it’s debatable.

Just say what you came here to say. Let me fall for you all over again as your whisper your sweetly bitter words into my ear and kiss my neck. Go ahead, hold my hand under the table on your warm leg and kiss me. We all know where this is going. You take my heart back just because you can, because you’ve “changed”. Just like every other time. Go ahead; take advantage of my naïve heart. Break it, just because you have that power. Leave me sitting broken and alone; waiting, praying, that tonight will be the night you’ll call back.

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Hummingbird This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Oct. 11, 2010 at 5:09 pm
Awesome, awesome job! Five stars. But I really like how this poem..... i don't know. still shows that this person is still hanging on a little bit. Like they still have hope. I don't think I could write like this. Thanks for sharing. Hey- I would appreciate your feedback on some of my work. thanks. And i also noticed you're from Oregon. That's like my FAVORITE place to vacation. Cannon Beach? Hood River? The best places ever. Oh Yeah- Lost Lake!
...Katelynn... replied...
Oct. 11, 2010 at 5:35 pm

Thank you so much for all of your kind words! It feels good to hear that the underlying message was communicated. It was written about my past-present, just about the hope and burning desire of wanting to revisit and re-experience a revised past, in the present. Thank you so much, it does mean so much to me! I would be thrilled to read your writing. :)

Oregon is amazing, agreed. Although I recently moved from the city to a small town, Oregon is just a friendly little place. All of the ... (more »)

Hummingbird This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Oct. 11, 2010 at 6:25 pm
You are so sweet! I just want you to know really how much it means to me that you would be thrilled to read my work. Thanks again, and I will be on the look out for more of your beautiful poems! :)
...Katelynn... replied...
Oct. 11, 2010 at 10:39 pm

Aww :D Well, if it would let me locate your work, I'd be thrilled to read it! It's not being...easy. Haha. Post a link for me, would you please? Then I can get to the rest. It doesn't seem to want to let me read anything!

Again, thank you so much for your kind words! You've really made my day. :)

Hummingbird This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Oct. 12, 2010 at 6:51 am

Hey Im sorry Since i'm still new to teenink,... how do you post a link. sry


...Katelynn... replied...
Oct. 12, 2010 at 5:23 pm
Never mind, darling. :) I, too, am new to Teen Ink. We're learning!
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