My heart bleeds

I use to be afraid to die .
How foolish was I.
I was stupid & young I loved life ,and people I was loved…I think .
I’m not afraid to die just of how I will I hope im asleep if I don’t kill my own self maybe drink some poison,
right before I go to bed it be peaceful no pain no cry’s but where would I go heaven or hell , would I be a Angel or a demon.
How I wish I was loved maybe I’d wanna live if I was herd and not ignored .
They all I think im cheerful but if they really knew me they’d know the truth It finally hit me ,
this year im not doing well at hidden my depression I was told I don’t ever look happy , and I’ve been ask what’s wrong words I never hear from people in school.
Some one save me from this darkness and land of demons and coldness , please any one just hold me
I want to live only so I’ll go to heaven
I’d shoot the trigger If I had a gun , I’d step of the chair if I had a noose, I’d slide it from my left ear to my right ear if I had a Sharp Knife.
I want Heaven I crave Heaven I feel heaven I dream Heaven .





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annoynmous said...
Oct. 11, 2010 at 5:38 pm
Hey. I know what you are feeling. I was just there and it hurts more than anyone knows. And the only reason I didn't kill myself was because I didn't want to go to hell. Keep struggling though. Keep fighting it because eternal separation from God would be even more agonizing. Give your life to Jesus. I did. And I'm not going to tell you things got better or that things got fixed. But I did realize that there was someone on my side who cared about me.
 
JAsmine collard replied...
Oct. 22, 2010 at 12:26 pm
i made this and i  make more poems lol
 
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