I’m killing myself so slowly
And I don’t know what to do
I’m hurting myself so badly
I don’t know if I should tell you

This is so painful for me
Every time I look in the mirror
This is so horrible for me
My fists clench as you draw nearer

It makes me feel so beautiful
I love what I’m making my body do
It makes me feel so hideous
I hate what I’m putting myself through

I ate a few calories too many
I should have had just one bite less
Maybe I wouldn’t hate myself
I’ve started to like the emptiness

The scale is my best friend and enemy
I don’t want to look at it today
But the numbers are what hold me steady
It all comes down to how much I weigh