September 17, 2010
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When people look at her, she smiles
Teeth flashing
Eyes aglow
They smile back
Because to them
Her true emotions show

Hair framing her face
Highlighting her eyes
Her cheeks
Her clothes casual
Posture strong
Never weak

Then people turn away
They’re satisfied
No one sees
She knows they don’t
Her happy smile falters
As does the strength in her knees

Her eyes glaze over
With things unshed
Mostly tears
Unshed to stay strong
To stay hidden
Hiding her fears

Everyone thinks they know her
All her likes
Her wants and needs
They think they know why
She usually doesn’t cry
Doesn’t plead
Why she smiles, why she laughs
When she sees something funny
Hears a good joke
Why she does what she does
Her sports, her passions
Why she doesn’t choke

They think they know her loves
Who she crushes on
At any time
They think they understand
What she writes
What she rhymes
What she feels during the night
In the dark
Whether at a friend’s
At a camp
At home

They think they know her
Her favorite book
Her favorite song
They think they know her
All about her
They’re wrong

She’s okay with that
Hiding behind the words
“I’m fine”
Yet she wants someone to see her
Meet her gaze with two words
“Don’t lie”

It never seems to happen
Crushing her goals
Her dreams
She continues to play along
She’s happy
So it seems

Silently crying out for help
From someone
People look back her way, and
As if one thing bothers her
She let’s herself seem happy
Yet it’s fake, breaking
Barely there
Everyone's gone, leaving her alone
To break down and cry
With no one to care

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apocalyptigirl said...
Oct. 2, 2010 at 9:55 pm
This was sad, and well-written. It painted a very good portrait of someone living behind a "happy face mask." At some points, the meter/rhythm was off, though: "Unshed to stay strong / To stay hidden" sounded odd to me, as did "At home"; I felt there should be another syllable there (like, "Or at home"). My favorite stanza was the one with the "I'm fine" and "Don't lie" in it. :)
CallMeFelix replied...
Oct. 3, 2010 at 10:25 am
Thanks =) I wasn't really going for a certain number of syllables or anything, which is probably why it was off at places lol
apocalyptigirl replied...
Oct. 3, 2010 at 2:01 pm
I mean, I'm not saying to measure out your syllables or anything, just do them with what feels right. :)
CallMeFelix replied...
Oct. 3, 2010 at 8:11 pm
haha, k xD
Thesilentraven This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 6:02 pm
Oh dear, what a gradually saddening poem! It is a subtly tragic narrative of misunderstanding, and I am reminded of myself (if misunderstood for different reasons). I thank you for writing this, and if this is your story, I hope your break free. :)
CallMeFelix replied...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 8:53 pm

That was one day more than a year ago that I just kinda...broke down. Then my best friend noticed the next day that I wasn't right, basically forced me to laugh and cheer up and call myself an idiot, and I was fine xD (she did it in a nice way, of course).


I hope you break free of your misunderstanding, and thanks for the feedback! =)

Healing_Angel This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Oct. 9, 2010 at 7:38 pm
Once again, brilliant! I can relate! I agrre with everyone else!
CallMeFelix replied...
Oct. 9, 2010 at 8:10 pm
Why thank you angel =)
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