I try so hard
Here I am
Screaming on the inside
Tears streaming down my face
Biting my tongue
Trying to ignore the pain
Wishing for hope
Praying for help
Dreaming for happieness
Longing for love
Remembering what makes me happy

knowing it will
Stop me from trying
Keep me from going
Stop the pain a little
Keep me praying
Stop me from looking
keep me hoping
Stop me from giving up

It will all end
Not soon enough

Life is
Pain
Hate
Hope
dreams
Never ending
Love
Anger
Confusion

Almost there
TO my happiness

No more drowning in my own tears
No more gasping for air in all this pain
No more debating pain or no pain
No more looking for a little relief
No more hiding
No more pretending

Just keep thinking
Of all those things
That keep me happy

The smiling faces
The words that tell me I'm loved
The hugs that prove hope
THe truth that says it'll be here soon

Soon, it'll be here soon
I'll pack my bags
Turn away from the pain
Finally be happy

No more sharpness from gliding across my skin
Telling me it's the pain I can control
Whispering lies to me

Hope is coming

Love is here
Guiding me
Leading me
Holding me