This is all my fault again... I fell in love with him... What a shame I can't see past my broken heart.... I have no oxygen to spare... For I'm not f***ing breathing..... Is this what I've become? I wanted to find love.... But i'll die searching for it...Its a shame.... Broken hearts are so blinding.... So selfish..... My pain is all I see... But i guess thats all I need..... So i'll hide beneath all of it.... I keep arguing with myself.... I'm going into my own hell... Shaky hands and racy hearts never stopped me from committing my own crime... I can't end it...... I need it..... I'll never be happy.... Its just not my thing.. I'll never get it...... I'm to sick with it all...... Never again will I fall..... I promised myself a hundred times..... I break promises as much as my heart breaks......... Well I can't say I'm done... Cause I know I'm not...... I'll be back to give misery it's sweet and sick company.. All my pain, and I've only made it worse... So much worse.. I can't deny how sick I feel inside...I guess I'm in love with misery.. I can't deny it.... His black eyes attract me like a bee to honey..... His cold kisses help me..... I won't leave him.... I don't care if his love kills me.... I want him for my sick eternity...... This is my love for misery.