This is what I have learned about a broken heart:
The people who you loved the most
Who told you,
Who promised you,
That they would never,
In a million years,
Hurt you,
Can hurt you the most.

They can get inside your head
They know all your secrets
They can backstab you with
Knives that you fabricated yourself,
Because you never thought that
They would use them against you,
Ever.

Now I sit here,
Shaking with
Shock and
Agony
My insides are all
Twisted
As I contemplate everything
That was said,
Done,
Made,
And
Broken.
I cry
Not for you,
Because you don’t deserve it,
But for my broken heart,
Because it has endured so much pain.


I will not let you bring me down,
Because you are not worth it.
I will not believe
All the lies that you scream at me.
I will never
Ever,
Ever,
Take you back,
Because I know that you
Will hurt me again.


The darkness tries to envelop me
The whisperscreams try to get in my
Mouth, nose, and ears,
Trying to fill me up with your
Lies and excuses
Saying that I
Manipulated
You,
When all I did was support you,
And you were the one
Manipulating
Me.
But I won’t let the whisperscreams
Get in my head,
This time.
I won’t let them kill me,
I won’t let them
Cut me down.
I won’t let the darkness envelop me,
Again,
I won’t let it turn everybody
Against me,
And break me
Down.


You broke my heart,
My trust,
But I still have my kindness,
I won’t stab you back.
I will hate you,
But I won’t lash out at you.
I will never be your friend again,
But I won’t turn others against you.
I can still fix
My reeling,
Aching,
Broken,
Heart.
I wipe away the
Black mascara smears
Take a breath
Take a moment
Breathe in deep,
Breathe out pain,
And vow to never talk to you
Again.