As your face lightens up
My heart feels a different way
Smiles and hope
Fills your eyes
As you tell me my guilt
And misery must leave mine
What stands before you
Is something so different
So unbelievable
What you hold on to
What you believe in
Is not the true me
I am understood to be
Anything but me

You say I am creative and kind
I say I am stupid and lost
We say that we think differently
You see everything I want to be
I see the desperate girl who hides inside
We realize that there has to be hope for me
Unless I am already gone to far away

What we believe to be
Something indifferent to me
I must tell you
I am not what you think I am
I am something so unbearable
Creative and kind
that’s not mine
Ugly and stupid
Greedy and misleading
that’s all me
You judged me
But I am not what you see
I am deeper than that

I have berried my life long past
Too deep for even me
So don’t even bother
To try to uncover
What is already gone
We may never know
What we should have known before
Because I am to far away
To be saved
I am gone
Gone away