Michelle's Poem

June 14, 2010
By respecturself7 SILVER, Medina, New York
respecturself7 SILVER, Medina, New York
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Favorite Quote:
There is a natural law in life to settle.....I broke that law ~Katherine Hepburn
Love, Is the severest of mental diseases~U.K.
Spinning always spinning....when life puts me down I'll give you a call~respecturself7


The sun shines bright outside my window.
The cheery day seems to laugh and mock my pain.
I feel so empty.
Like these hands that lack the precious bundle they so ache to hold.
Tears course down my face
Already red and raw from sobbing.
I thought I was done crying
I guess I'll never really be done.

My family's gone home.
Visiting hours are done.
I'm left alone.
In stained white walls and sterile rooms that echo the pain and sickness of others.
What is life?
Is there a reason I live?
I touch the glass.
As I watch, the picture of what should've been mine plays out before me.
A happy couple.
The husband, wheeling wife and child to the car.

Why?
I just keep asking myself,
Why?
Is this a punishment?
Why would life give me a child only to take it away?
God, didn't you know I needed this child?

I should've born life
Instead, I bore death.
A small life I couldn't keep safe.
I failed.
I keep playing that moment over in my mind
The moment I saw that perfect little baby wrapped in death.
I stared at two eyes that would never open
Touched the small hand that would never hold mine
And whispered
"I'm sorry."

Where are you now little one?
Is your soul at peace?
Did you suffer much pain?
Do you dance with angels as I mourn your loss?

Little one,
My heart,
My love,
My child.
Be safe.
Be happy.
And smile often, though I cry.

There, through the open window
A promise of life appears.
An answer to my prayer
A beginning of healing .

I hold out my hand
I watch in Awe
As it glides slowly down
Till it rests gently, softly on my finger.
It flutters its wings
And takes off again
Flying heavenward
It fades
Into clouds and sunlight.

A gift from God,
A sign that everything will be okay.
And for a moment I almost smile.

Michelle's Poem


The author's comments:
I wrote this for my friend Michelle.
She lost her baby and when she was In the hospital a blue butterfly came through the window. She said it was a promise from God to let her know that everything would be okay. That her child was safe in Gods arms. She got a blue butterfly tattoo and always wears a butterfly necklace in silent memory of her child.

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on Jul. 20 2010 at 6:04 pm
respecturself7 SILVER, Medina, New York
8 articles 0 photos 76 comments

Favorite Quote:
There is a natural law in life to settle.....I broke that law ~Katherine Hepburn
Love, Is the severest of mental diseases~U.K.
Spinning always spinning....when life puts me down I'll give you a call~respecturself7

Thanks so much! I really appreciate ur feedback!

on Jul. 15 2010 at 3:22 pm
respecturself7 SILVER, Medina, New York
8 articles 0 photos 76 comments

Favorite Quote:
There is a natural law in life to settle.....I broke that law ~Katherine Hepburn
Love, Is the severest of mental diseases~U.K.
Spinning always spinning....when life puts me down I'll give you a call~respecturself7

Thank you, thank you, thank you! This poem is really special to me and I'm glad I can reach people with it.

on Jul. 13 2010 at 7:09 pm
Minnie101 SILVER, Cleveland, Tennessee
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Of sad words of tongue and pen the saddest are these it might have been...

Amazing how deep it is, I was sucked into it from the first line. I like your work. Keep on posting.

on Jul. 13 2010 at 6:46 pm
sky_is_womb BRONZE, Moorestown, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
All the soarings of my mind begin within my blood- Rilke

this is so deep. i respect you for being brave enough to write about something so sad and serious. i especially liked the line "Why would life give me a child only to take it away?" good job

on Jul. 13 2010 at 9:11 am
respecturself7 SILVER, Medina, New York
8 articles 0 photos 76 comments

Favorite Quote:
There is a natural law in life to settle.....I broke that law ~Katherine Hepburn
Love, Is the severest of mental diseases~U.K.
Spinning always spinning....when life puts me down I'll give you a call~respecturself7

Thank you sooo much you guys! I was really scared about posting this poem cause it's so personal to Michelle and I really didn't want to mess it up and def didn't want it to get a ton of negative feedback. I was actually really proud of this piece. I worked really hard to get into the mind of someone who's suffered this kind of loss; I was pretty much depressed the whole time I was writing it, but that's the price we writers pay: empathetic souls. Thanks again!

on Jul. 12 2010 at 10:38 pm
HeatherBee BRONZE, I Live In, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Go on and try to tear me down. I will be rising from the ground, like a skyscraper

Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect

*sniffle* oh my gosh, that was remarkable...and sad...but beautiful.. that really made me tear up. bravo. good job! and that story in the description is just whoa. that and the poem gives off a deep sense of  hope, like a_dreamer said

on Jul. 12 2010 at 6:25 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker
We cannot change the cards we're dealt just how we play the hand
Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted
It's pretty easy to be smart when you're parroting smart people
-Randy Pausch

Aww, that's so sad and sweet, emotional and well-put, excellent inspiration.  Awesome job.

on Jul. 12 2010 at 6:08 pm
Just.A.Dream SILVER, Lake Geneva, Wisconsin
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Part of the J7X team. :)

Awe, this is so sad! You can definitely feel the emotion you put in this poem.

It gives me a sense of hope. :)



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