What I Regret

June 20, 2010
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Tricycles to bicycles,
And a new pair of glitter shoes
You wear band-aids
Like stick on earrings
And macaroni necklaces

That you made
Just last Tuesday In daycare,
When you should have been home
With me, to watch sponge bob
And eat pb and j
Im sorry, I didn’t make you a sack lunch

Instead, today you skip the hot lunch line
Head to the bushes out in the lot
Now laced with hazy smoke
And rough whispers
Your eyes are darkened

Not only by the thick eyeliner
But the bruise
Your lover, your boyfriend
Left on your face
He kissed it, and apologized
Im sorry I didn’t kiss it
And kill him

You learn from
Yellow stars on spelling tests
And one night of terror
After your first OD
I should have hung your test on the fridge
And slapped you after finding pot
Under your bed
It was beside one of your black heels

They remind me now,
Of your glitter shoes
And your macaroni necklaces
But all you wear now
Are hospital bands on your skinny wrists
And pale green paper dresses
We could have bought a dress for prom

But now I buy a dress
It doesn’t match the casket
Not something you should notice
While you lay your daughter
In the ground
Beside dried blood
And worms

That you used to bring to me
And scream Mommy,
Mommy it’s a snake
And I’d kiss your forehead,
But turn away
Just as I am forced to do now

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Bridie said...
Jan. 6, 2011 at 7:37 pm

Dear Hay_Wire,

You are probably my favorite poet on Teen Ink. Everything you write seems to touch my soul in great depth. Continue writing and let me know when you become famous because I would like a copy of your 1st book. This Piece reminded me of one I recently wrote called Birthday Wishes, but it is nothing compared to this. Your poem completely blows it right out of the water lol.

From, Bridie  

Hay_Wire This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Mar. 18, 2011 at 2:26 pm
umm.wow. thankyou so much for your cmment. honestly, id dropped writing for a bit..going back and reading my work is helping me get back into it. thanks so much, i;ll be sure to check out your stuff
Bridie replied...
Mar. 21, 2011 at 9:29 pm
lol i wish teenink had like buttons for comments XD no problem and thank you =D
MelanieLouise This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 9, 2010 at 11:53 am
very very powerful. and i love the contrast. great great work. never stop writing, Mel
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