As I look up into the sky
I realize that it’s autumn
I smile
It’s your favorite season

As I look back down
I frown and look around
It’s almost as if I’m confused
But, once again I remember
Your not here with me…
Anymore

“You are my sunshine… my only sunshine”
I barely whisper into the air
It’s was your favorite lullaby
As the tears in my eyes begin to build
I shut my eyes and close them tight
I refuse to cry

It’s been ten years…
Ten long cold years
Since you left
The pain still lingers

A hiccup escapes my lips
As I sing
“Make me happy when skies are gray”
You would have been a big boy
My big boy
As of today you would have been…
Thirteen

I watch my tear’s lightly fall
The little droplets hit the newly planted flowers
I begin to smile once more
As the shrill of a child’s laughter fills the air
“You have a baby sister.”
I whisper and smile
Even if life goes on
The pain of losing you so young
Still hurts

The pain of losing a child
Never disappears
It’ll always hurt
You continue to live in my heart
I’ll always love you

I will continue to sing…
Your favorite lullaby
Even if you can no longer hear me
I will continue to sing for you
I can only hope…
That the wind will pick up my message

I wipe my tears
And give a sad smile
As I put my hand over my heart
And brush my other hand against your engraved name
The wind begins to pick up as I sing
“You’ll never know dear how much I love you… please don’t take my sunshine away.”
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