I wrote God a letter tonight, and laid it out in plain view so he read it...

Dear God,
Why did you make me this way?
Why do these memories keep returning?
Is my subconcious trying to tell me something isn't quite right?
Why do I have these issues?
Why did you make me this way?
Will this ever go away?
Can I just say "Go away, I don't want you anymore?"
There's a ping in my gut.
Will it disappear eventually?
If I can make just one suggestion, I want all of it removed.
I will be able to live a more comfortable life with it gone.
I don't like feeling this way. It's completely unfair.
I know life isn't always fair, can you make this time an exception?
I don't wanna be like this anymore.
One day, it'd gonna be too late and I wont wanna blame you God, but I know I will.
Would you really put me through that torture?
It won't be nice; aren't you supposed to be the nicest being ever?
I don't ask for much that often, and when I do ask, things turn out better.
So can you make this work out for me?
I wanna trust again.
Sincerely,
NicoleMarie