Lifegaurd

Sorry?
You weren't sorry,
You were never there for me,

I remember crying my eyes to sleep,
my tears were water from the sea,
who swooshed me up,
and took me under,
under and beneath,

I would lie awake,
every night,
or stay awake,
hoping my dreams might take me away,

I would always toss and turn,
with the waves of the ocean,
I would try to pause,
try to stop,
my life was always in motion,

the waters were always moving,
I would scream for a life ring,
for something, for somebody,
but another wave would crash,

I go under,
but I can't swim,
I must save myself,

I must be the lifeguard,

of my life.

...

because you were never there for me.