I am lost.
My phone vibrates.
“im here anytime if u need 2 talk”
Ok.I am glad you care.

I am lost.
I tell you about my nana’s passing and how I feel,
Since you’re “here anytime if u need 2 talk.”
“Stop,”you yell,”you’re depressing me!”
So much for being there.

I am lost.
I talk to you at lunch,
I tell you about my nana’s passing and how I feel,
“Hold on,”you say,”I’m talking to Nicole.”
You turn away and never look back.
So much for being there.

I am lost.
You said you cared,
I tell you about my nana’s passing and how I feel,
You weren’t there anytime if I needed to talk.
I try to understand it.
So much for being there.

I am lost.
Why will you not hang with me?
Am I a dork?Weird?Immature?
Is it because now
You go to the mall without adults,
Or date Matt?
And all behind your mom’s back?
Am I not important?
So much for being there.

I am lost.
Maybe we’ve changed.
But I hope you change back.
I liked the old Emily.
I think you are being immature.
I have gone through a tragedy.
Taken a lesson in “Life.”
I’m not sure you have taken that lesson.
So much for being there.
I am lost.
I cry at night,
Clutching the green blanket
That smells like my nana.
So much for being there.

I am lost.
But maybe I will show you this.
I will not talk to your face, you don’t like that.
And if I am depressing you,
How do you think I feel?
So much for being there.