Not What You Think

This mask is just
A guise, you see
It's better for
Others and me

What I do feel
When it's not clear
Just play alaong
And don't come near

Though it might seem
As something more
It's not what I
Am looking for

You may think
I have enough
But it't not hard
For me to bluff

Im sitting here
Something I'm not
Wishing I'd rolled
A different lot

But God did not
Intend for me
The life I wish
Others would see

Without my love
Now by myself
A lonely queen
Amidst her wealth

So here I write
To you I speak
I'm crying out
As I grow weak