I'm trying to realize what is worth
fighting for
whether I'm to weak or strong enough
to do my task
to follow through with what i want
i need to fight
for everything as simple
as my mothers love
and pride
over people who could care less about her opinion
when it means everything to me
i want to reach my goals
make bigger strives
i want to be what everyone says i will be
these all come with a price
one i may might not be able to pay
and some i can easily
but I'm not sure it's worth it
the pain of knowing you
don't want me
or the disappointment in losing that race
im not sure i can take it
i want to go forward but it feels like im free-falling backwards
and no one is there to catch me
i want this so badly but there isn't a place for me
even if I do get there
so for now i think I'll continue
futile attempts