My heart cries out
for my love
with out understanding who it is
it has made me
insane thoughtless
confused heartless
yet filled with passion
my heart tell my history
it tells of all the people
i have loved at some point
cousins
friends
lovers
who have enventually
left me like a baby bird
not yet ready to let go
my heart is still beating
still warm
it goes thump
thump
thump
thump
and it is the only way
i know for sure
that i am alive
that this world is real
but it is this war heartbeat
that is my enemy
because it is what keeps
me alive and breathing
keeps the word flowing
out of my mouth
my heart causes my anxiety
that i can not stand
my heart
makes me joyful and lovely
my heart
is filled with hatred
toward otheres
and this ignorant world
my heart is mine