I hide from my family
I hide in the corner.
I seem okay.
I'm not okay.

It hurts
But, oh, it relieves!
The marks which it leaves
Give me a sense of accomplishment.

Already broken--
Is my heart.
Almost broken--
Is my skin.

It should all be better today.
That was a farce.
I have fooled myself.
I have fooled everyone.

"I'll never do this again."
Yeah, right.
The desire is there--
Everyday.

I can't stop this.
All I can do is continue.
Continue to feed
The flames of pain.

I pause...to live life
Then return to the pain.
"And this," I say to myself,
"This is only the beginning."