why??

A gust of wind and howling wolves are the sounds I hear

My thoughts are all of peacefulness as are all my cares

I think about that time I told you that I missed you so,
and how I told you that i loved you, felt so long ago

I look above my head to see a black sky filled with stars,

it makes me remember all the times I was with you finding constellations and racing our toy cars

I have grown up a lot since then I would just like you to know

I think about the times we shared and then a cool wind blows

It makes me shiver and makes me quiver I want to go inside

but then I see a light ahead. I think I see a smile.

As the light appears to be getting closer, i kind of want to hide.

My peaceful mind clears its thoughts. now its full of terror I want to scream and run and cry.

I want to disappear. I close my eyes and think of you, hoping there's a way

for me to see you once again if I live past today.

As the person walks slyly forward until were face to face.

I laugh until my cheeks are red. It was you whom I embraced.

You and me we laugh and cry and talk about our lives

when we were young and innocent, when we just loved surprises.

I cry until my heart just bursts, you look almost the same.

Until I see a wedding ring then I go insane.

You get down on one knee and say "will you marry me?"

I think for long time and say no I chose to be free

You look at me confused and mad but your feelings are bottled up inside.

now its you who wants to scream, who wants to run and its you who wants to cry

when you ask me "why?" I say nothing, I just sigh.

"why is the ocean blue, yet when you put it in a glass, why is it so clear?"

"why do fairy tales always have happy endings and why are diamonds so rare?"

"why do butterflies have matching wings and we have matching eyes, how come one's not different than the other? why don't humans fly?"

why do we do anything? why is anything a certain way,

why are some things meant unanswered, like why I do not want to marry you today.