Numb Mind

April 2, 2010
Here i am sitting in my Accounting class
Hunger in my stomach and boredom in my mind
I should be doing my work
but I'm two chapers behind so what's the point
That's what I get for daydreaming
That's what I get for bing obseesed
It's been two years now
We never had anything to begin with
I used to be a good girl
I was nerdy
I wore glasses
I didn't like makeup
I didn't do my hair
I never had a boyfriend
All of that is the opposite
I'm superficial
I'm conceited
I like guys
Was it him?
Or did I just grow up?
Is it my age?
Is it my hormones? Is it simply the way of life?
I miss my nerdy days..
the simple days.
Where did they go?
Who took them away from me?
Was it him?
Yes, it was him.
This obsession.
I need help.
It's not healthy.
I should be doing my work.
I'm two chapter behind.
What is the point?
He stole my spirit.
And I want it back.
I need closure.
We never had an ending.
Yet, we never had a begining either.
Is he to blame
No, it's my fault...
I gave him the power to control my mind...
the day I looked at him and the day I answered his calls.

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Yuri B. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Oct. 23, 2010 at 11:14 pm
I like the way you expressed your past and your present. I like the way you questioned your life now versus then. Your feelings in the poem reveals that you have matured in your image and your thinking. As long as you stay positive in life, you will be successful in anything you do. Keep writing more expressive poems.
nayeli replied...
Nov. 14, 2010 at 1:39 pm
aww...thanks Yuri I appriciate it.
rainlover1994 said...
Apr. 29, 2010 at 3:53 pm
l like it.... and honestly I blame it on age for why we feel this way. You have an easy to understand and easy to relate to feeling to your work. I believe that this poem might provide some guidance to people going through the same emotions. Keep it up, and if your up to it check out some of my work :)
Nayeli...Hahaha This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Oct. 23, 2010 at 9:24 pm
Thank you. I appreciate your comment! ;o)
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