The house breathes beside me
And the rain
Falls from the sky like
Angel’s teardrops
Crying
Over you.
The computer screen
Is the only light
That illuminates the cobwebs in my brain
As I try to find something,
Really anything at all
To say.
And your silence
Cuts me like the tiny shard
Of glass
I found on the ground last Wednesday
And I remember how I held it
And imagined cutting, blood, and pain,
And then dropped it
And walked away
Because I knew there would always be you.
I was
Wrong.
You think you know me
At least that’s what you say
And you tell me not to be sad,
Not to cry,
Not to write anymore poetry,
That is will all be okay.
I never knew before today
That you were a
Liar.
But sometimes lies
Are what fuel me when humanity’s fire
Burns my defenses away.
So I’ll look back up at you
And mouth the words I don’t want to say,
I’m fine,
Just fine.
Lie to me some more.