Days grow darker and colder, these words I scream out, become bolder and bolder. Too much hurt, so much pain. Everything to loose, nothing to gain. As I write out my heart to you, dedicating my every word, in your far away place I wonder if i'm heard. I cover up the pain, pretending I don't miss you. Too bad we both know that isn't true. Thinking back to the past, fourteen years of my life. I fell asleep holding you tightly but woke hugging your grave even tighter. Why exactly you had to leave?, I'll never know why. I just know I was far from ready to say good-bye. Hearing the truth, believing your really not here. I lie to myself to hold back all the tears.