How long Must I Wait

How long will i have to live with this fear! That is suffocating me like a thousand knives killing me slowly.

How long must i wait for you to come back! when you really are not.

How long must i realize that this is not a dream! That the reality is more hard, confusing, and painful to see.

How long must i sit here watching the world pass by through me, not accomplishing anything for myself.