if i ever recieve trust, i shouldn't
shouldn't be the one to be trusted
if i ever recieve hope, i wouldn't
wouldn't be the one with hope to live for
if i ever recieve honesty, i refuse
refuse to believe anyone is honest
if i ever recieve love, ill deny
deny the hopes of anyone in my life
if i ever recieve guidance, id shake my head in ignorance
ignorance that i have in my life
if i ever recieve helpfullness, id dismiss it
dismiss it like i did my perfection
if i ever recieve perfection id lose it
lose it like i once had it
if i ever recieve my life back, id screw it up
screw it up to the point of no return