For Good

March 12, 2010
By Anonymous

A little while after Derek, my first boyfriend, had committed suicide,
(Maybe a month after?)
I was listening to music as I cleaned up my room,
And as I started to clean out my top drawer of
My nightstand, I came across the blue ring
He had given me when we first started dating.
(My heart nearly skipped a beat)
And right as I found that ring,
My music changed to a new song,
One I hadn’t heard in quite a while.
It was “For Good” from the musical "Wicked".
(That song reminded me of Derek)

"I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason…
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you"

The song played on as I studied the ring in my hand.

"You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend..."

I could feel myself tearing up, but I didn’t really care.

"It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you"

And it was then that I realized that even though
I only knew Derek for such a short time, about a year,
He had changed my life,

"Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better"

He had shown me how to put
A new perspective on the little things in life.
Because of him, I learned to not take life for granted,
And see the humor, in both good times
And the worst of times.
It was then that I realized that I still did love him.

"Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
And because I knew you...
Because I knew you...
Because I knew you...
I have been changed
for good."


The author's comments:
This poem is taken from a memoir in free- verse that I wrote after Derek, my first boyfriend, committed suicide this past November. The song mentioned in my poem, "For Good," from Wicked was actually something Derek had shown me, and after his death, I always associated him with that song.

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on Mar. 31 2010 at 4:48 pm
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Favorite Quote:
“I tell you, the more I think, the more I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people." Van Gogh

I feel for your loss...my condolences.




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