I am no longer human, even though I consist of flesh and blood
A human has emotions; I do not
Every now and then, I reminisce those painful days
When my dreadful, gut-wrenching memories reared its ugly head
They were the bars restraining my imprisoned heart
Be gone! The need of those unforgivable emotions
Why does she torture me so
As she continues to play a never-ending game of hide-and-seek?
How is it that I, a girl of 15, must endure such misery?
I remember how she would make me my favorite meals
And help me with my homework
We'd giggle, gossip, and goof around about everything under the sun
But that was before…
Before we heard the doctor's diagnosis
Before my name was relinquished from her memory
Like clothes in an out-of-style wardrobe
Before her fate arrived on a black train of sadness
That day, when I found out it was over
A hammer smashed me in to a million little pieces
All of the emotions that floated aimlessly around inside of me-
Ire, melancholy, malice- all useless
I got rid of them
I exorcised emotions from my mind like a vacuum frees a floor of dirt
I am flesh and blood. Yet, I am not human, for I lack emotions
They are gone, and will remain gone, forever… and for always