I shouldn't be in tears right now,
it doesn't make any sense.
I should have listened to what my brain said,
but I decided to ignore it.

Some people say that we would look good together,
that I should give him a shot.
I want to try but he does not,
and it hurts to know he never will.

When I'm with him I'm comfortable,
like I don't have to hide anything from him.
I want to trust him with everything someday,
but I don't think it would work out.

I'm not sure what to think anymore,
not sure if I should trust him or not.
Right now he is the thing holding me together,
my light that gets me going each day.

When I'm with him it feels right,
like it was meant to be.
When I'm with him I feel safe and secure,
and I don't want to let him go.

Another tear falls as I see his face in perfect clarity,
but why I do not know.
I'm not sure why I keep crying because of him,
why he makes me heart ache.

I'm not sure whether I should tell him I love him,
I don't think it would be a good idea.
Women usually don't say it first,
I don't want to make that mistake again.

He makes my world go round and makes me happy,
makes me forget that I'm in pain.
He always puts a smile on my face
even when I'm crying.

It doesn't make any sense on why I'm suffering,
I know I shouldn't be hurting this much.
But I know that I can never tell him how I really feel about him,
and I'm not sure what I'll do if he leaves my life forever.