I lie awake in the dark of night,
Visions pass through and I’m filled with fright.
I’m alone here once again,
There are emotions inside I fend.
Early in the morning I arise,
Look out the window and the sun hits my eyes.
I hop in the shower and feel the rain,
It always seems to help wash away the pain.
I sit down on the couch and start to ponder,
Then I’m lost in myself and my mind wanders.
It’s been so long since I’ve seen your face,
Been so long since I’ve been to that place.
I can remember the last words you said,
They ring in my ears and I feel dead.
Baby, I’m sorry, but this can’t work,
Deep in my mind these words lurk.
Not once since have I tried another love,
I’m afraid of being the lonely dove.
So many times I’ve written a song,
Just so I can sing along.
I miss you is definitely true,
With each day I become more blue.
So I sit with the knife thinking of you,
This is the last thing I can do.
Then I realize how you would cry,
So I choose today not to die.
With each day that may pass,
I’ll just sit through each class.
I’m alone and scared, but you don’t care,
Cause you’re with someone else, god knows where.
So as I spend my days alone,
I just want you to know, this is still your home.