The feeling of loss surrounds me
I take a big gulp from the bottle,
It’s irrelevant to lose the sadness,
When ALL I know I am doing is covering the pain

The Feeling of happiness surrounds me, as I take another punch.
I have to laugh to see the effect.
I tell someone and get a lecture on GOD.
I didn’t want a lecture, all I need is support.

The Feeling of total retardation hits me hard.
Being alone as I taste the fluid, I create an undeniable void
The Void makes my heart bleed for love,
But I, as a drinker can’t understand that.

Why is light given to me when I hid myself in cement,
When I treat life like a repeat present at Christmas time
The drink sloshes around my stomach,
My veins begin to tingle, to move, to be free

I feel distraught and take another,
I feel liberated when my head starts to scream
It should be illegal for me to destroy anything
Drinking only takes time to beat me to the end.

I am sad when I realize I was wrong
I feel despair when I know it was dumb
I know that whoever knows will only be there to care.
Creating a VOID filled with fluid, only makes a bigger whole.