Numb....

Five in the morning
I rise from a restless slumber
No dreams or broken images
Behind my closed eyes
I just chose not to think last night.

Memories of him and his new beginning
Fills my head
No jealousy or hatred
Poisoning my mind
I just chose not to worry this time

Reminicences of his kisses
Floods my veins
No thoughts of that actually phase me
Just chose not to remember it

Orders from him to never speak again
Wets my lips
My hand clenches around the receiver
And dials his number
I just chose to be a rebel

His words are like knives
Intended to cut through my skin
I'm not hurt or rejected
I chose not to feel anything
I just wanted to hear his voice