though today is as always
i follow him every where
do what he does
date who he wants
tied to the same fate
i feel as he breaks
and cracks his heart into millions of pieces like endless hallways
do i copy every thing he does as he merely sneers
does he do what he does just because
as he stakes through the heart every one he loves just because he wants
lied to me over and over again but i mustn't take it as hate
i feel as though he might one day quake







i feel locked in a fish bowl
no way out
and today it snows
and to me its like snow flakes falling outside a snow globe
they fall slowly and quietly disappear
am i him or is he me
do i do what he does or does he do what i do
does he hurt who he loves or do i hurt who i love
do i date who he wants or does he date who i want
do i really look like him or does he look like me
shouldn't it be plain to see
does he lie to me or do i lie to him
one of us should know
we are always together
are we just like each other
one in the same
do you feel my confusion
how should i know who i am
why cant i see
its dark in here
its filled with hate and darkness
is this the feeling of his heart or is this feeling my heart
do our hearts beat as one or two
i wonder if you feel the way i do
should a relationship feel this way






today he lied to his girlfriend with a straight face about another woman
his face was cold and when she cried he yells at her like she is the disgrace
his emotions are blocked now a days
they like monotone to someones out bursting emotions
he always keeps a straight face
and after all he's done he smiles at me like its okay
i wonder if he could be a stone cold killer
and does he even think how this makes me feel or how it makes me look
what does not understand
lord help him see a brighter day









today he visits his family
and he hit his little sister and tried to kill his best friend
she is pregnant and it was his best friend's
the doctor said the baby is gone and that he should see a doctor about mental health
i think this should be a point in his life where he gets help
maybe i can try
but i don't see how
how would they hear me
and if they could
would they ask for prof

so the questions still remain






i feel locked in a fish bowl
no way out
and today it snows
and to me its like snow flakes falling outside a snow globe
they fall slowly and quietly disappear
am i him or is he me
do i do what he does or does he do what i do
does he hurt who he loves or do i hurt who i love
do i date who he wants or does he date who i want
do i really look like him or does he look like me
shouldn't it be plain to see
does he lie to me or do i lie to him
one of us should know
we are always together
are we just like each other
one in the same
do you feel my confusion
how should i know who i am
why cant i see
its dark in here
its filled with hate and darkness
is this the feeling of his heart or is this feeling my heart
do our hearts beat as one or two
i wonder if you feel the way i do
should a relationship feel this way







i cry my eyes filled with the ocean
my heart filled with ice shards
but i don't think you feel my pain
i can't do this anymore
i think want to die if im not already
i still don't know if he's me or if i am him
do you know
can you tell me how you feel
do you know how it feels
for your self esteem to be on such a low level

how your relationship to be on an bumpy sea getting smashed by tidal waves

for your family to hurt both mentally and physically

for your mental state being examined for being psycho

how it feels to hurt your best friend because of who he loves

for a loss or a death in your family or friends

for your spiritual well being and religion to be questioned

for discrimination to happen to you or your race





do you feel my hurt feelings, my pity, my low self esteem, my race issues, my horrible loss, my mental state being questioned, my religion and spiritual being being questioned do you feel the lack of family connection, do you fell the way i do,



do you feel a fellow mirrored images confusion can you feel its pain