The thoughts run through my mind and never get out,
It’s all worry, frustration, and self doubt.
Unwelcome and unwanted but have no problem overstaying their visit,
When I was young and naïve everything just got better when you kissed it.
It’s not like that anymore because I am much older,
And my pain and need for help is so much bolder.
I had no idea what was going on with him,
It was like I was in a room but the lights were very dim.
No one filled me in because they thought I wouldn’t understand,
Little did they know I was witnessing it first hand.
The thoughts run through my mind and never get out,
It’s all worry, frustration, and self doubt.
It wasn’t the ache in me that hurt the most to see ,
But, rather it was the pain in my mother and Brea.
Crying herself to sleep after working all day,
My mother was stuck in a life of disarray.
It began when she was only sixteen and in love,
Because this boy cared about her and that was something unheard of.
Nevertheless did she know that this obstacle was ahead,
It soon became the little known fact that was just left unsaid.
It’s a cancer that has been passed down generation to generation,
Unfortunately it’s not a sickness that can be fixed by just any ol’ medication.
The thoughts run through my mind and never get out,
It’s all worry, frustration, and self doubt.
She soon got the courage from within to do what was right,
And finally she saw at the end of the tunnel there is light.
She fought off the sickness for me and my sister,
There is nothing I could ever do to even begin to repay her.
The one thing she couldn’t do is deny our DNA,
He is part of me and I am reminded everyday.
The thoughts run through my mind and never get out,
It’s all worry, frustration, and self doubt.
The sickness is in my blood and I worry about greatly,
Especially how I have been seeing it in my friends so much lately.
That is not the road that I will choose to go down,
Because I know my life is successfully bound.
I cannot help the fact that this is what I was born into,
But it is a fight I must take on because it is well overdue.
I am cutting myself free and finding a cure for the cancer,
Even though I am told that there is no answer.
The thoughts run through my mind and never get out,
It’s all worry, frustration, and self doubt.