this is a poem for my lost love
whom I will never see again

whose deep laugh resounds in my head
and the wide deceiving smile you
gave me countless times lingers in our
old photographs

your thick scarred back reveals
your rugged exterior, yet keeps in
the soft side I once knew

the tenderness of your words
soothed my tear soaked eyes.
your determination to
succeed seemed unbreakable

your talent for making me laugh
was remarkable

but that was before,
before you grew up into a person
I no longer recognized, and a person
I no longer wanted to know

your cruel intentions turned us both
bitter and the new, self-centered you
forgot about me

you will never understand.

so I write this poem in the memory
of my happiness, in the memory
of our happiness
because we will forever be lost in time.