ABSENCE

I FEEL SO TRAPPED,
SO DISCONNECTED TO THE WORLD,
LIKE EVERYTHING
HAS DISAPPEARED.
I FEEL SO ALONE EVERYWHERE I GO.
NO ONE EVER WANTS TO KNOW HOW I FEEL
OR HOW I WANT TO HELP THEM.
I FEEL LIKE I’M BEING PUSHED AWAY INTO THE DARKER –SIDE OF THE UNIVERSE,
I FEEL SO BADLY HURT THAT I WISH FOR NOTHING
BUT BLISSFUL DEATH.
SOMETIMES, I LOOK OUT THE WINDOW
AND FEEL LIKE THE WORLD’S GOING TO COME DOWN AND CRASH RIGHT ON TOP OF ME
EBECAUSE I HAVE BEEN BADLY HURT BY MY FRIENDS,
BY THE FACT THEY DON’T CARE ANYMORE,
BY THE FACT THAT THEY HAVE FORGOTTEN OF WHO I AM,
I FEEL AS IF I MIGHT DISAPPEAR,
IT WILL BE AS IF MY EXISTENCE HAD NEVER BEEN LIFTED
LIKE MY LIFE WAS NEVER BORN.
I’VE ALWAYS THOUGHT OF HOW LIFE WOULD BE
IF I DIDN’T EXIST,
WOULD MY FRIENDS TODAY
BE THE PEOPLE THEY ARE TODAY?
OR SOMEONE NEW?
WOULD MY PARENTS HAVE A BETTER LIFE
WITH OUT ME?
OR A WORST LIFE?