What did you expect me to do? Did you expect me to fall to the ground in tears, or try to fight for you, try to fight for what we had? I believe you are sadly mistaken on both counts. Every tear that falls from my eyes, i'll wipe from my precious face. Just the same way as im trying to wipe you & our memories, our love, completely out of my heart. It's harder than i originally anticipated, i'll admit. But what am i supposed to do? I'm going to continue smiling, as if absolutlye nothing is wrong. even though inside, it is an unbarable fate that i have to face alone. I know your pleased with yourself, as you see me fall. You left me without any direction, any clue to what to do next.
December 22, 2009