four is my safe number
eight is doubble strength
i smell terror im my sudden sweat,
oh please god dont let this happen.
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i sit here waiting
thinking of his voice
wondering if he remembers me
wanting him to notice me
wanting him to want me

hes mine finially after all these years


flirting

talking

kissing

touching??...

what is this??
ive never done this before...
do i want to???

skreaming NO inside my head
but not wanting to lose him...

what do i do??
what do i say??

i am ashamed.
confused crying and soon content... saying to my self, four is my safe number eight is doubble strength__i smell terror in my sudden sweat__
oh god please tell me, what do i do.

he will love you today leave you tomorrow this is my biggest fear...