If I could say anything I wanted…
I’d tell my mom that I’m sixteen and I can be alone without burning down the house.
I’d tell my sister that I will be there when her friends leave.
I’d tell my sister that mom and dad can tell when she’s lying.
I’d tell my dad to stop drinking. That he can live without drinking a twelve pack every night.
I’d tell my brother that mom and dad are going to get divorced before he graduates.
I’d tell my sister that it would make life hell for my brother and I if she ran away.
I’d tell myself to be strong. That nothing will ever change the way I want.
I’d tell him to leave me alone and stop playing with my heart.
I’d tell my mom that deep down she loves my dad and he loves her too.
I’d ask god why life isn’t fair.
I’d tell my uncle that he married the wrong person.
I’d tell my friends to cherish the moments they have together. For they are few.
I’d tell the world that all it takes is a smile.
I tell myself these things every day. But the real question is: would I really tell them these things? Would I give up being humane, risk all my friendships, to try to save theirs? The truth is this will never happen. I will always be quiet and watch people repeat their mistakes. I’ll fall in love with the same guy over and over even though I know he’ll keep breaking my heart.
If I could I would.